actually what if post 15x18 dean accepted his sexuality and started thinking of himself as a widower like fully acknowledging that he has gay thoughts and that cas was his emotional partner and he thinks himself into a territory of like. if we both felt romantically for each other....were we dating? if we spent the past 10 years like this are we common law married? so he just starts referring to cas as his like. late partner. he’s having a bittersweet moment trying to verbalize what he couldn’t before because at least he can do this much for cas’ memory? except nobody else knows what he’s doing so they all think that dean and cas have been fucking for years and dean is only now coming clean about it out of guilt or pride or whatever. and then when cas comes back everyone’s like wrow happy couple reunited......this is so sweet.......you can be Together again........meanwhile dean’s freaking out all over again because now he’s got to put real work into a real relationship and cas is like. Did i miss something.
im sorry if this is obnoxious op but ... u inspired me so i wrote a lil bit wahh. also i can delete this and make a new post if u want just lmk!! and also its just dean calling cas his late husband, unfortunately no resolution (would LOVE to read that if anyone wants to write it)
So, Dean got the job.
He likes the work. Likes being one of the guys who actually drives a stickshift on the regular, ‘cause everyone else who works at the shop is about twenty, meaning they’re all kids with automatics saving up for Teslas. Likes working with his hands and knowing what he’s doing.
As always, Amy just says, “Uh huh,” once he starts in on his rant, says, “You gonna stop jerkin’ yourself off anytime soon, old man?”
“Shut up,” Dean says, without any bite to it ‘cause he likes Amy. He crawls back under the crappy Ford some asshole totaled three days ago and works.
When he comes out from under the car, Amy’s got some classic tunes on the radio. She says it’s for his benefit but Dean knows she’s a Zepp fan as much as he is. A line from Bitter Creek — you know there ain’t no cause to weep at Bitter Creek — hits Dean right in the chest, ‘cause it makes him think of Cas.
He thinks of him smiling to this song. He remembers playing it for him, one of Dad’s tapes, the two of them idling out near the Colorado border just for the hell of it. Wide open country out there, miles and miles and miles of flat land, and Cas sitting on the roof of the car, the tallest thing in sight.
Dean had just looked at him. Sitting right there in the dying sunlight. He’d just looked at him, Christ, feeling so goddamn lonely because Dean’s never been good at keeping people around and Cas was the worst of the whole goddamn bunch. But Cas had been smiling. We’re gonna hit the road one last time, sang Don Henley, and Cas had smiled.
